February 2012
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January 2012
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WatchMy fail at an interview.
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WatchLOOK. I DON’T HAVE A JOB OR T.V. OR MONEY. OF COURSE YOU’RE GOING TO GET A MILLION UPDATES!!!!!
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Depression.
I go to a church. One of the leaders wrote a book about depression and anxiety. I have been struggling with this for ost of my life, but lately to a worse extent. Anyway, the website My Name Is Hope has a chapter available to read and it is like he read my own journal. Some of the things he wrote are the same exact ways I described myself. So I am extremely excited to read this. I would recommend...
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texts to a friend.
Why can’t I be one of those people who aren’t intuitive? I’m never wrong. Why do I have to be right about things I can’t control? And if I know I’m right then how come I can’t fix it? And why don’t they know what I know? Just been good at pretending lately. I also pretend that pretending helps.
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Developments of Today.
None.
I’m at Coava Coffee right now. Enjoying a nice Nicaragua cappuccino. I love being here. I might have a job. I still need to call insurance and the police in Kansas City about faxing a copy of the report. I NEEEEEED pasta. And veggies. Applying to be a receptionist is stressful because I know I could get the job, but I’m sure that it would bore me to death that I’d end up...
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Questions.
Why do you need an apprenticeship for drain cleaning? I mean…
What would you call the position that I held while working for that merch company?
How do you write a generic cover letter? For like, a temp agency. When you have zero experience or care about the type of job, you just need one and you know you’d be awesome and whatever you put your mind to…?
To Whom It May Concern:...
Anonymous asked: WHY are you so hot?
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THANKFULLY.
I was really worried about coming back here, but it feels more like home to me than Atlanta did.
I was most worried about all the crap that happened to get here. I was extremely nervous and stressed about how I would make this work again. I wasn’t sure if I should be here, but I was sure that I didn’t want to be there. I loved this city for the most part. Being away made me evaluate...
OH MY GOOOOOOSH.
I’m not even lying when I say how stressful this trip to Portland has become.
I do feel better about going, though. More sure.
After all of this, I better, right?
Today we drove through Wyoming. Winds were 50+ MHP. It was awful. I felt so tense.
Then, we eventually get into Utah, which I HATE DRIVING THROUGH!!!! THE ROADS SUCK! And immediately, they were snowy. I freaked out. We stopped at...
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Hospitals, Motels and Confusion.
Last night my dad gave me the “I’m Dying, Please Forgive Me Speech.”
It involves tears and apologies for everything he’s ever done. He does this usually when he’s in a hospital after a stroke or whatever. Last night, though, we were in a Motel. And he started it with, “If I don’t make it, Megan…” and ended it with “don’t tell your...
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Bad Coffee.
It’s been a long time since I’ve had Starbuck or any other big chain’s regular drip. I’ve never been a fan, but when I add enough water, cream and sugar to it, I ca drink about 6 ounces. Yesterday, I stepped into a Caribou Coffee inside a Hy-Vee. I ordered their dark roast, which was already brewed and had been sitting for at least an hour.
I’ve been reading about...
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Guidance.
Is it a sign?
Last night my set backs kept me in Atlanta longer. We set out around 5:45 am. Through thick fog and heavy rain and lightning. The entire time, practically.
Then, at some point, Christopher and I went I-65 towards Louisville. I don’t know why. We were off course for 10 minutes when all of the sudden my hand jerked and caught on my keys and then slammed back into my gear...
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What Am I Doing?
A few of my friends don’t really think I’m going to leave on Tuesday. Heck, I haven’t really made as much of an effort into this thought because even I don’t believe I’m really going to do it.
It’s been fun hanging out with friends these past few days. That part makes me not want to leave again, but I know that if I were going to stay here, it wouldn’t be...
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WatchMuffins and Forts.
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This day has been short.
I went to bed around 4. I woke up around 11. I got out of bed around 1. Then I watched ‘New Girl’ until 4, while eating Dove chocolate. I took a shower afterwards. Got out. Climbed into bed and then took a 10 minute nap on accident. Then I got out again around 6, ordered Thai. I picked it up. Met my cousin, and now I am here, hating that I have the wrong order and it’s filled...
